My inability to express myself effectively in written form is becoming more and more obvious as we continue to move into this new age of emails and texting. I am typically very comfortable expressing my thoughts orally. Now.... everyone has their highly emotional situations that block all logic filters and they vomit their feelings and you can always rethink how you could have said it better, or revaluate whoever' feelings you hurt because you are acting on sheer emotion.
Over the past two months I have continuously had to defend myself because how my messages were read was....Honest, not "prepared", or just not "correct". Most of the time I feel alone when I try to express myself to my kid, my husband, my boss, my bosses boss, and whoever else I have communicated with. At times I feel like that I have two allies, my Mom and my sister. I know some of these people are trying...and I try to give them credit, but I really just get upset because you want them to understand, but they don't, and they probably won't. Even more frustrating is that they think they do. It is hurtful that many of these people always think the worst in me. Why is this how they think of me? It has to be me, but what is it?
Through this I have learned that this is either....genetic or learned from your family. My mother and my sister have run into similar situations and the "issues" they have had always go back to something they have written. When I read what they wrote, i get it, and wouldn't have drawn the same conclusion that the other person may have. Now I do realize that it is my sister and my mother so some allowance is given for the love/family factor. Not sure exactly how this happens because we use very different words and ways to describe things..... (scratching my head)
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