Keep Smiling because I can!

Things I am thankful for:
1. Tender
2. My husband (yes truly) You are always there for me when I need you. You always support me!
3. Having the best sister/s and parents! Again ALWAYS supporting me and helping me, and just loving me for who I am, my faults and all!
4.AWESOME girlfriends. I have so many true friends, I am blessed!
5. having a job at this point
6. being able to pay my bills! that may be an extention of #5 but whatever! All jobs don't pay the bills.
7. co-workers that care about me!

thanks Lauren for the great Idea to post what I am thankful for!

Crushed.....

I think I am a good person in general. I mean I have made my share of mistakes in life and feel like I learn and grow from each one personally and professionally. Over the last few years I feel like I have really changed a lot. My life has changed a lot and I always try to roll with the punches. I see myself as a caring person, but usually not very emotional. I am an ethical and moral person, so I think right now in my life someone is trying to teach me a lesson...I guess. I can't imagine ruining someones career. I have always been an advocate of people growing their career because someone always been there to support me until recently. Have you ever felt like you couldn't do anything right no matter how hard you tried? I think based on the fact that I have always been someone you could depend on to support you and I guess I have always recieved that in return. I think I need some time to think about how to be someone that has no emotions or learn how not to care about people personally as well as professionally.

Who is that evil? I know I know! How do you look at that person every single day and treat them the same as the other people and why do they deserve to be treated that way anymore? Especially when what you are saying is a total lie!

YOu are a sick individual!

rant complete!

brandi

Well I have not posted in a long time. It seems I tend to post when I feel bad in some way or another. When things are going well I usually don't have too much to say.

So throughout my life I have always loved the managment piece of my job and felt I was rather good at it. As things turn out I guess I SUCK! I have allowed myself to be friends with the people that work for me and let me just tell you that gets you in trouble. If you are a manager don't let your guard down EVER! My life has been turned upside down in the last two months and I am having trouble really "wrapping my brain around it". I am very care free and I think I have a strong work ethic. I mean don't get me wrong I get frusterated just like the next person but it usually doesn't last too long, I figure just do the best you can and move on. Things change and it seems like the trend it to just WORK MORE....DO MORE....PRODUCE MORE. I understand it, but along the way you need some encouragement. You need to feel like the work you are doing is appreciated, not just by your manager, but by the people you manage. When you really feel like you give it but never recieve it, it gets exausting! Guess what I am exausted! I don't know what people think about me when they think of "Brandi", my friend, my co-worker, my boss, my mother, my spouse, my whatever they are to me. I will plug my husband here and where I bitch about what he doesn't do in the home, he is AWESOME at building my self-esteem. He he always tells me what a great wife, mother, and worker I am. Okay back to the real stuff......

I have worked hard my entire life, I like to think harder than most. I have provided for my family and given of my self unconditionally. I have remained ethical and stick to my morals, and I feel really good about that, because I know not everyone can say that. When the pressure is on people will do about anything. YIKES! I have really taken the high road and I am proud of that. So really all I am saying is I AM WORTH IT!

Okay I know a lot of people say they ramble, but I know I am the best at rambling...I start one story or thought and then something comes up and I completely change direction. So for that I am sorry to anyone who reads this! Night Night Sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite! Oh and Ryder's newest favorite "uh oh spagettio!" that just makes me smile and feel all warm and fuzzy inside!