Well I have not posted in a long time. It seems I tend to post when I feel bad in some way or another. When things are going well I usually don't have too much to say.

So throughout my life I have always loved the managment piece of my job and felt I was rather good at it. As things turn out I guess I SUCK! I have allowed myself to be friends with the people that work for me and let me just tell you that gets you in trouble. If you are a manager don't let your guard down EVER! My life has been turned upside down in the last two months and I am having trouble really "wrapping my brain around it". I am very care free and I think I have a strong work ethic. I mean don't get me wrong I get frusterated just like the next person but it usually doesn't last too long, I figure just do the best you can and move on. Things change and it seems like the trend it to just WORK MORE....DO MORE....PRODUCE MORE. I understand it, but along the way you need some encouragement. You need to feel like the work you are doing is appreciated, not just by your manager, but by the people you manage. When you really feel like you give it but never recieve it, it gets exausting! Guess what I am exausted! I don't know what people think about me when they think of "Brandi", my friend, my co-worker, my boss, my mother, my spouse, my whatever they are to me. I will plug my husband here and where I bitch about what he doesn't do in the home, he is AWESOME at building my self-esteem. He he always tells me what a great wife, mother, and worker I am. Okay back to the real stuff......

I have worked hard my entire life, I like to think harder than most. I have provided for my family and given of my self unconditionally. I have remained ethical and stick to my morals, and I feel really good about that, because I know not everyone can say that. When the pressure is on people will do about anything. YIKES! I have really taken the high road and I am proud of that. So really all I am saying is I AM WORTH IT!

Okay I know a lot of people say they ramble, but I know I am the best at rambling...I start one story or thought and then something comes up and I completely change direction. So for that I am sorry to anyone who reads this! Night Night Sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite! Oh and Ryder's newest favorite "uh oh spagettio!" that just makes me smile and feel all warm and fuzzy inside!