Three really.....

Ryder will be three in a few days. Two has been the most unbelievable year with Ryder! He is the cutest thing ever, and is perfect for me. He is my sweety first and foremost, but has he has an incredible personality and most fun kid ever! Everyone always talks about terrible twos, and I am thinking what am I going to get terrible 3s?? 2 has been so great for me! I am just writing to remember all of the things I hope never to forget, but with my memory it is bound to happen.....

Ryder loves to play golf, swing (mostly on the tire swing), and drum role please.....TRAINS! He can really play trains for hours and hours. He loves to watch trains on the computer, that means on Youtube, watching other people play trains and tell stories. His favorite train is Gordon, well his favorite consistently.

Trying to think of some highlights of the year. As I mentioned earlier I have a terrible memory so most of the highlights will be recent. haha

Thomas the Train in Grapevine- Attended with Granny, Declan, Ryder, and Mom. Ryder was only interested in riding the train. All of the other events...yadayadayada...to Ryder.

Zoo- Attended with Granny, Poppa, FerFer, Ryder, and Mom. This was the most perfect Spring day, April 11th and it was an amazing day. His favorites, the giraffes, the penguins, and the underwater hands on petting zoo (my best explanation), and the train ride on "Molly".

Mardi Gras - We visited Lake Charles for Mardi Gras, and Bit and Grants' birthdays. This trip was very spontaneous for us. Lindsay was SWLAs Little Miss Mardi Gras so the weekend was very eventful. We had parades, and events the entire weekend. Andrea had a pagent and she was stunning! She was 2nd runner up.

Summer- Ryder enjoyed the water this year, but hated swimming lessons. We only went once because he was so "bad". He still hated getting water in his eyes, but would use the floaties and float around the pool independently.

Ms. Understood VERY!

My inability to express myself effectively in written form is becoming more and more obvious as we continue to move into this new age of emails and texting.  I am typically very comfortable expressing my thoughts orally.  Now.... everyone has their highly emotional situations that block all logic filters and they vomit their feelings and you can always rethink how you could have said it better, or revaluate whoever' feelings you hurt because you are acting on sheer emotion.

Over the past two months I have continuously had to defend myself because how my messages were read was....Honest, not "prepared", or just not "correct".  Most of the time I feel alone when I try to express myself to my kid, my husband, my boss, my bosses boss, and whoever else I have communicated with.  At times I feel like that I have two allies, my Mom and my sister.   I know some of these people are trying...and I try to give them credit, but I really just get upset because you want them to understand, but they don't, and they probably won't.  Even more frustrating is that they think they do.  It is hurtful that many of these people always think the worst in me.  Why is this how they think of me?  It has to be me, but what is it?

Through this I have learned that this is either....genetic or learned from your family.  My mother and my sister have run into similar situations and the "issues" they have had always go back to something they have written.  When I read what they wrote,  i get it, and wouldn't have drawn the same conclusion that the other person may have.  Now I do realize that it is my sister and my mother so some allowance is given for the love/family factor.  Not sure exactly how this happens because we use very different words and ways to describe things..... (scratching my head)